It is, and it's obvious if you know where to look. The only problem is that you're right.
After everything that's happened since the first of us arrived, I don't think it will take much longer before that worry is shown to be well founded.
We need to do more without sacrificing one thing for another.
[ Morale, hope, sanity, health, safety, happiness, each other. It's an impossible, but this place is full of the impossible made possible already. What's one more thing if they're still willing to fight? ]
Or without desperation. It exposes us more than anything else.
[ talking to him was so soothing. practical, and calm. the kind of state that he'd like to remain in. every nerve of his is on fire, paranoid and afraid and angry. the last one, he hasn't given much thought on. anger makes him impulsive. ]
[ If this conversation had happened right after he realized that Bokuto had gone missing, Akaashi doesn't think he'd be able to guarantee practicality. But now, he's had the time to prioritize. Emotions aren't something awful to have, but being upset - sad, angry - leads to something dangerous. ]
I don't want to see people hurt, and I'm willing to help strangers if I'm able to. Forming a network to help one another, one beyond our club and the people we know well, there's nothing wrong with that.
But the further you stretch, the more you leave vulnerable and the easier it will be for you to snap.
We have to do what we can to avoid that and to protect everyone from being consumed.
[ and what a project that is. ]
I feel like I talked too much. It felt horrible thinking that I'm not finding enough things to propose solutions to these problems. But ... I want the same things as everyone else.
I'm sorry about Bokuto. We'll take care of you too.
Easier said than done, especially when there are certain people that I picture immediately when thinking about it.
[ Kuroo, the idiot that's going off alone thinking that it's the better option. Oikawa, who smiles and tries to keep them all together as he's falling apart. ]
No matter how little or how much you say, I appreciate that you talk to me. Your thoughts matter a great deal to me, and it's [ reassuring, maybe, to know there's someone thinking about these things too ] something that helps us brainstorm solutions.
[ But that gives Keiji pause, and he has to bite his lip before he replies. ] Thank you, Tsukishima.
I'm keeping an eye on them too. Somehow that's not enough. I don't think anything will be enough to someone who's made it their mission to see everyone safe, but it's the same for the one who's supposed to be kept safe, too .... I mean, we can only be terrified of so many doors.
Jumping at shadows isn't a very productive hobby, even when those shadows can turn around and jump back at us. But being so high strung is going to wear us - and, namely, them - down rather quickly.
It's alright. It was strange enough to be growing older here in the first place; I just hope this isn't going to become a normal thing for us from now on.
Food is always helpful.
Kageyama made me something he learned from the cooking club, and I didn't die. It was rather thoughtful of the king. [ ah. ]
Even just thinking about having more than one birthday here is something that I'm not really keen on doing. Let's just cross our fingers and do what we can.
I joined a book club, so maybe I'll be able to find something there. Although I'm still thinking about when we talked about the baking club.
Maybe I'll join it sometime, at least part-time, instead of sneaking in and stealing the extras.
[ Oh, how good... ] It was nice. A good reprieve that I'd like to have again, next chance we get.
I'll talk to both of them about their clubs, I think. Cooking club is something useful, but the survivalist club definitely is something we all should visit at some point.
Speaking of, though, I received a first aid kit mid-September. Maybe I'll give it to Kuroo-san.
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I'm not contesting it. One reason is as good as another to keep moving forward.
I'm only worried that one day it may not be enough.
[ because one day they'd have to fight. because the desire to hurt someone is very, very real if a friend has been killed. because. ]
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After everything that's happened since the first of us arrived, I don't think it will take much longer before that worry is shown to be well founded.
We need to do more without sacrificing one thing for another.
[ Morale, hope, sanity, health, safety, happiness, each other. It's an impossible, but this place is full of the impossible made possible already. What's one more thing if they're still willing to fight? ]
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[ talking to him was so soothing. practical, and calm. the kind of state that he'd like to remain in. every nerve of his is on fire, paranoid and afraid and angry. the last one, he hasn't given much thought on. anger makes him impulsive. ]
Iwaizumi would've fought for anyone.
I told him that he'd have to choose, one day.
[ them or us. ]
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I don't want to see people hurt, and I'm willing to help strangers if I'm able to. Forming a network to help one another, one beyond our club and the people we know well, there's nothing wrong with that.
But the further you stretch, the more you leave vulnerable and the easier it will be for you to snap.
It's just as dangerous as desperation.
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We have to do what we can to avoid that and to protect everyone from being consumed.
[ and what a project that is. ]
I feel like I talked too much. It felt horrible thinking that I'm not finding enough things to propose solutions to these problems. But ... I want the same things as everyone else.
I'm sorry about Bokuto. We'll take care of you too.
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[ Kuroo, the idiot that's going off alone thinking that it's the better option. Oikawa, who smiles and tries to keep them all together as he's falling apart. ]
No matter how little or how much you say, I appreciate that you talk to me. Your thoughts matter a great deal to me, and it's [ reassuring, maybe, to know there's someone thinking about these things too ] something that helps us brainstorm solutions.
[ But that gives Keiji pause, and he has to bite his lip before he replies. ] Thank you, Tsukishima.
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[ paranoia is a good look on some third years. ]
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You should tell me when your birthday is. And Bokuto's.
Kuroo wouldn't tell me his, because he likes to be difficult.
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[ Akaashi doesn't want to reach that level. ]
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Bokuto-san's was September 20. I think Kuroo-san's is also sometime in the fall, but mine is December 5.
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I don't want to be ungrateful about everything. I just want people to be careful.
Ah, right. Yours is coming up, then, so ... Kuroo must have his birthday sometime in October or November.
I'll have to find gifts for you both. Yachi used to give me small things all the time, though she's much better at making them than I am.
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[ Considering Bokuto and Kuroo's friendship, he thinks he's right. No surprise that Kuroo's being difficult, though. ]
I didn't get a chance to get anything for you when yours came around, unfortunately, but maybe I'll be able to find the right thing to make up for it.
I'm not the best at making things, either.
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Food is always helpful.
Kageyama made me something he learned from the cooking club, and I didn't die. It was rather thoughtful of the king. [ ah. ]
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Even just thinking about having more than one birthday here is something that I'm not really keen on doing. Let's just cross our fingers and do what we can.
I joined a book club, so maybe I'll be able to find something there. Although I'm still thinking about when we talked about the baking club.
Maybe I'll join it sometime, at least part-time, instead of sneaking in and stealing the extras.
[ That was a good day though. ]
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I know Kageyama's in a cooking club; he's been working hard to learn a few recipes.
Kuroo is in the Survivalist club learning first aid. Considering the kind of trouble we can get into ....
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I'll talk to both of them about their clubs, I think. Cooking club is something useful, but the survivalist club definitely is something we all should visit at some point.
Speaking of, though, I received a first aid kit mid-September. Maybe I'll give it to Kuroo-san.